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One of the keys to running your business is knowing who your client base is. This can be as simple as implementing a survey in which you ask them directly about themselves and their habits or preferences if they are loyal customers. You can help determine who your target audience is by looking up information about them through secondary research on sites such as Google, Twitter, Facebook, and LinkedIn and obtain insights into how they would like products to be marketed to them. Third Party Market Research means research conducted by COMPANY in support of any relationship or agreement between COMPANY . If you are thinking of branching out with a new service or product, a good approach could be to simply implement it and see what reaction you get from clients.
You know the saying, “Does an alligator wear shoes?” Well, if you don’t know then let us tell you that it doesn’t matter. But we think you get our drift, and while you can do most things on your own as a business owner there are some situations where it’s most definitely in your best interest to hire others to do some of the work for you. Here are three examples: 1) Calling the fire department because fires aren’t good for business; 2) Visiting a doctor when you’re sick because getting sick isn’t good for business; 3) Hiring professional market research professionals when something is not quite clicking with your audience, and it may be affecting sales – which isn’t good for business either!

A professional market research firm is useful for the following five reasons:

1. Honesty

When it comes down to things like market research, honesty is essential. If your respondents or participants don’t tell you the truth about what they think of a certain product or idea, then your findings can be misleading, which leads to misguided decisions that won’t represent all possible solutions for your client nor will help achieve the desired outcome. So now we all must ask ourselves an honest question: Are people usually always and seamlessly honest with one another? No – there are many situations and aspects where people seem unwilling to tell someone else what they’re thinking. Now think back to when you were younger, did you do a good job when it came down to being honest about everything? Think about what makes communicating genuinely difficult for you and others, why is honesty so complicated?
Honesty is the fifth benefit of hiring a market researcher instead of conducting research in-house. When it comes to gathering information for your project, ensuring that your participants are honest and comfortable are two important things. And when you choose a market researcher who can provide both benefits, it can help you get the accurate data that would allow you draw valuable conclusions and make smarter business decisions. Honesty is an incredibly important part of marketing in any niche. While you might use different strategies to achieve honest results on your end depending on the type of work that you’re doing as well as other factors, honesty will always be a vital part of obtaining real feedback from customers or clients to consider when making big decisions or taking actionable steps moving forward which could affect your brand’s image – whatever that may mean or look like at this point!

2. Different Perspectives

Hiring a market research agency will give you access to experts in the field who can provide you with unbiased insight that’s essential to ensuring your products and services meet your business goals. Your staff may also have a personal stake and thus have an incentive to overlook some of your product’s weak points. You need dedicated marketing professionals so that you can manage strategic relationships carefully. Make sure those relationships are managed appropriately through thorough analysis of all feedback from customers, competitors, vendors, etc. It’s important for both individuals implementing these strategies to manage their daily activities effectively so as not to experience burnout.

3. Interpretation

Market research can be beneficial to a company in many ways. It can provide additional insight into consumer preferences that may come as a shock, or it could reveal some opportunities you never knew existed. Whether the information is quantitative or qualitative, market research requires a skilled professional to interpret it correctly so your company can become more profitable. With all the data that’s gathered, it may seem overwhelming—but you don’t have to worry too much because we’ve got your back! Hiring us will not only save you time and energy but money as well because we have earned our certification in market research interpretation to ensure that your next business move will be the right one!
Interpretations of data can go awry. Designing and implementing significance-based statistical analyses, charts, and graphs are critical components of the interpretation strategy. If done incorrectly, the analysis may lead to two or more incorrect key decisions because individuals will concentrate on one of the multiple and many features that were analysed. With trained professionals providing recommendations, you can feel confident in making sound judgments and moving forward with fewer wrong turns down the road.

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As an entrepreneur, you may have considered implementing data research and analytics into your business but choose to do in-house rather than outsourcing. This is a common issue that entrepreneurs deal with due to the variety of instructional material available online that seem helpful, but never address the real issues being faced by numerous businesses each day. If you’re ready and willing to find answers on what will make your company run more effectively than it’s worth speaking to professional market researchers who specialize in analytics.
Professionals are like chefs. They have the ingredients to make your data taste better and bring out the best flavours from it. More than that, they can tell you what ingredients to put in your survey so as not to waste a single mouthful. Also, they’re skilled at drawing people whom you want to focus on inside your target market into the right survey and asking them all the right questions to get responses directly related with your company’s success in surviving tough fluctuations of the business industry while maintaining profit margins intact. Lastly, they create new findings based on their analysis of the data gathered through surveys that could guide your business decision-making processes as an entrepreneur.

5. Effective, Reliable, and Trustworthy

Content that accompanies original research is very appealing to the press as well because it is seen as being more credible. The same goes for online users who typically react more vocally to such content on social media compared with other kinds of content.
While the cost of outsourcing market research is typically higher than doing it yourself, you must remember that the value of hiring a professional team for this purpose can be priceless not only because you will likely receive more value out of them in terms of the quality and effectiveness of the product that would otherwise be inferior otherwise. Seek out research companies like MarketResearch.com that have been in business for decades and are full of individuals with years of experience. They will know how to conduct your market research properly so that it brings positive results regardless of if you’re planning on launching a new product or growing an existing project.
While some businesses are still wary of outsourcing most jobs, it’s becoming more common today than ever before. If you want to avoid wasting time on minutiae and double-checking every decision and person you interact with, why not hire a qualified market research firm to assist you in your endeavours? You can have peace of mind knowing that professionals are helping you with the tasks that need expert attention and if there is an emergency or something goes wrong, they will adjust for you immediately. Just make sure you review their results for accuracy so that nothing slips through the cracks!
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23M. Near-Sighted with -3.25 prescription in both eyes. First noticed a scotoma in my right eye (big enough to make the tip of my finger disappear) in February of 2022. If I had to estimate where the blind spot is, I’d say it’s somewhere closed to where the near peripheral meets the macular range on this diagram. It’s definitely not central. https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/4/4c/Peripheral_vision.svg/220px-Peripheral_vision.svg.png
First noticed it because it made a straight line (running across a white background) on a desktop screen appear bent in the area where the spot is. It’s most noticeable it if there’s a white background or a straight edge, like when the edge of a white bathtub comes into that area of my vision.
Saw an ophthalmologist a year ago about it and had a dilated exam. IOP was borderline (was out of range once in 2015), OCT was normal. He looked in my eyes, said that my right optic nerve appeared inflamed, took some sort of picture of them, and then came to the conclusion that they were “symmetrically swollen”, so he figured it was “just how I am”. Did a visual field test, passed it, but I know I didn’t do it correctly.
What could be going on here? My left eye seems to be completely unaffected. Vision in my affected eye is very slightly blurrier, but it was still 20/20 in both eyes with glasses at that ophthalmologist appointment. Far peripheral vision seems to be unaffected. Right eye is swollen/red/hurts in the morning, and the scotoma is usually more noticeable in the first few hours of the day. Doesn’t seem like it’s gotten way worse than it was a year ago, but it’s definitely more noticeable most of the time.

Tl;dr: I got (rightfully) down/upset about my girlfriend's actions today. She played the victim (imo) and made me feel like I should feel bad for feeling bad. It is not the first time she has done it.
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Brief background: We have been together since end of 2022 and things are usually great. We tend to have a very open and solid communication (we kinda make it the foundation of our relationship). It is very important for us to express to each other how we feel about situations, with full honesty and transparency. I'm finishing my education in Psychology so the vast majority of the time i'm very empathetic about everything and she tells me that a lot. She has grown up with a lot of conflict with her parents and, thus, tends to have defensiveness as a go-to response to stuff sometimes. All in all, however, it is a very positive and fulfilled relationship so far.
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The problem: Today I woke up late for class because last night I was applying some tests on a patient and it went on until past midnight. I'm usually late to every class and it has started to affect my attendance and therefore my passing of the subject. She got very upset at that, and when we went for lunch (super quickly) today, she scolded me quite directly. Nevertheless, I fully feel like i deserve whatever she told me. Her opinion matters a lot and i felt it as harsh words coming from love.
The rest of the day, we have class until evening. She has an exam so she doesnt reply for many hours; then, she went to some friends house to chill for a bit with her group. She replied very little for most of the day and when she did, it was 2 or 3 very dry words.
I'm fine with not getting replies the entire day but I feel that when it has been a rough day for me, it only makes me feel more sad and alone when she basically shows no interest in talking for the entire day.
Fast forward to 1am where she's finally home and calls me. I'm visibly upset and we have a conversation about everything. I express to her SO many times that im NOT upset that she scolded me and i agree with her, but i just felt sad all day because of the nature of how our conversation for the rest of the day. (btw at no point did i complain or say anything - i was just very quiet after she clearly had no intentions of conversing all day).
She apologizes for being harsh and tries to make me feel better. Until there, all good. I was still upset but i told her i'd feel better in the morning and we hung up cause her sister was about to sleep.
She texts me right after the call and tells me that she is hurt about how i reacted to everything. I ask her to elaborate. after, listening and replying, i remind her that im not upset about her scolding, just about the rest. She seems to not register this because one thing leads to another and she is now very upset. She starts saying things like "what i say isnt worth shit i guess" and "i guess im gonna the bad ex-girlfriend who never tried to help".
Essentially, everything was fine until i had the feeling like i was now supposed to be apologizing for feeling bad.
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This isnt the first time it happens. In the past she has done the same thing multiple times (me VALIDLY expressing being upset, and somehow it ends in me apologizing for one thing or another).
Last time she even recognized it and apologized herself. This time i told her she was trying to be a victim (something she has told me a few times in the past) and she got even more upset.
So am i totally out of place or do i have the right to be upset and not have the focus shift on her every single time im upset about something? I used to give into it because I couldn't see clear but the more often it happens, the more it hurts.

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I haven't told anyone really as no one in my life knows I use. But I want to get it off.my chest. I'm a good girl, high IQ college single mom of 3. Well while working out (cuz we can't be fat) at 4am, then 6am get kids up and ready, 730am off to.school and work, work all day, 4pm get kids go home, cook dinner the second I running the door to be in my college class by 6pm. On nights I didn't have college I taught a zumba class during this time. In college from 6pm -10pm kids r being assholes etc. (Normal) Then 10pm-1130pm homework
Start over 5 days a week
Weekends were scrub the house, adventures, time with kids, shopping, meal prerp....
See the pattern...
No me time... 6 months of asking family and friends to help with kids or cooking a meal I buy or even to just listen... no one helped. And nobody daddy not in life for kids... it's all me and no child support.
So i started snorting cocaine. I had focus and needed less sleep.. Well a guy a night out and a syringe later in hooked on it IV
IN 4 MONTHS i lost my job, stopped going to the gym, and i chased the dragon so hard i lost myself
. This was May 2022
I got clean
Now Marcb 2023 I'm back but not coke My gma is immobile and requires care. (She takes it to far) I have to lift her, feed her,.dress her, bather her, and listen to he yell and scream in pain all day and night.. I have 3 kids still And my last semester before.my bachelor's degree
I didn't wanna be back I love the feeling (more of the coke) But not enough to be here
100% sober I was getting maybe 2hours of sleep in 48hours. Using I can stay awake longer and when I do crash asleep it's hard and feels amazing and a break from her screaming and yelling and complaining
FYI She was diagnosed narcissistic schizophrenia recently after years of mental abuse from her I treat like my gma even though she still abuses me

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Hi .. Reddit newbie and I hope I am in the right place.
I have a Dell T420 server with the H710 raid card, and I (stupidly in retrospect) installed Server 2022.
Problem. I cannot install the raid drivers. Not supported.
The machine is running and I have Raid 0ed some drives. But I suspect that there are problems. I get stuttering..??
I downloaded the 2016? drivers from the Dell site..
After days of googling and trying the suggested hints. Interrupting the install and doing a manual via device manager etc etc, and nothing.. nada.
I am tempted to downgrade to server 2019 which did seem to support the driver (from memory) but that is complete reinstall.. and I will lose a lot of data.
There is talk of reinstalling the firmware to IT mode.. but that looks spooky and I do not really want to go down that path.
I there any way I can force the driver install? Generic LSI ? Edit an inf file ?
Tia
Peter

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GREENWOOD - The City of Greenwood took time this week to honor the man responsible for stopping the gunman inside the Greenwood Park Mall in July.
Greenwood Mayor Mark Myers chose Elisjsha Dicken as the 2022 recipient of the Citizen of the Year Award for the city.
"July 17th started off to be another beautiful day in Greenwood. Unfortunately, it became one of the darkest days in our history. A lone gunman entered the Food Court in the Greenwood Park Mall. As he emerged from the restroom he began firing a rifle, killing 3 people."
"Because of his heroic actions the City of Greenwood proudly honors Elisjsha Dicken as the 2022 Citizen of the Year.".
Following the mass shooting at the mall, Greenwood Police Chief said the following of Dicken.
MORE 'No clear motive': Greenwood police, FBI release new findings from July shooting at Greenwood Park Mall.

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I am posting because I just really wanted to reach out for some sort of advice and help. I just feel at loss. I feel so upset. I’ve known for some time that something wasn’t 100% with my sperm. I’m 28 so it hasn’t bothered me in the past. Got married november 2021 and started trying for a child in november 2022. I assumed my sperm was so watery because i had low sperm levels, so I started taking male pregnacare tablets.
Just to put my mind at ease in February I had an SA. On valentines day they told me i had no sperm. None. Went to a doctor’s appointment at a fertility clinic, she advised a repeat SA, did that and nothing again. No sperm seen. They’ve centrifuged and examined the pellets both times. Nothing.
Yesterday the doctor recommended TESE to get sperm. My hormone levels are all normal. In the meantime, I have to take clomid and imperyl. Tese is in june. UK here. All private. I feel so upset for those who find it difficult to pay.
The issue is that I feel broken. I feel less of a man. I’m finding things so difficult right now. I carry on thinking I’m somehow unworthy. I’ve tried talking to my family about it. It won’t go away. The thought of donor sperm makes it worse. It’s not something i can do religiously. At the same time though it makes me think another man is going to provide for my wife in a way i can’t. It’s maddening. I don’t mean to upset or offend anyone. Just posting here to meet people in the same boat as myself. I don’t have lots of friends. My family is my life. My wife is my best-friend. The thought of not having a family with her drives me tears.

Jelly shoes have been a summer staple since the 1980s. They are comfortable, lightweight, and perfect for a day at the beach or a casual outing with friends. But what happens when your favorite pair of jelly shoes starts to show signs of wear and tear? Don't throw them away just yet! With a little creativity and some DIY skills, you can upcycle your old jelly shoes and give them a new lease of life. In this blog, we will explore some fun and creative DIY jelly shoe upcycling ideas.
Glitter Jelly Shoes
Give your jelly shoes a glitzy makeover with glitter. Start by cleaning your jelly shoes with a damp cloth and letting them dry completely. Then, using a paintbrush, apply a thin layer of glue to the surface of the shoes. Sprinkle glitter on top of the glue, making sure to cover the entire shoe. Allow the shoes to dry completely before wearing them. You can also use a clear sealer spray to keep the glitter in place.
Floral Jelly Sandals
Add a touch of nature to your jelly sandals by decorating them with flowers. You will need some faux flowers, glue, and a pair of scissors. Cut the flowers to the desired size and shape, and glue them onto the straps of your jelly sandals. You can mix and match different flower sizes and colors to create a unique and personalized look.
Tie-Dye Jelly Flip Flops
Tie-dye is a fun and easy way to give your jelly flip flops a fresh new look. You will need some tie-dye kit, rubber bands, and a pair of gloves. Start by wrapping rubber bands around the straps of your flip flops to create a tie-dye pattern. Follow the instructions on the tie-dye kit to mix the dyes, and apply them to the rubber bands. Allow the shoes to dry completely before removing the rubber bands and washing them. You will be left with a beautiful and vibrant tie-dye pattern.
Studded Jelly Shoes
If you prefer a more edgy look, you can add studs to your jelly shoes. Pick your favorite pair from brands such as Loboutin, Valentino and Carmen Sol. You will need some studs, a pair of pliers, and a strong adhesive. Place the studs on the straps of your jelly shoes, and use the pliers to bend the prongs over the straps. Apply a strong adhesive to the back of the studs to ensure that they stay in place.
Painted Jelly Sandals
If you have some painting skills, you can create a unique design on your jelly sandals. Start by cleaning the shoes with a damp cloth and letting them dry completely. Then, use acrylic paint and a paintbrush to paint your design onto the shoes. You can create a pattern, a picture, or just add some colorful splashes. Allow the shoes to dry completely before wearing them.
In conclusion, jelly shoes for women are a versatile and fun accessory that can be easily upcycled with some simple DIY techniques. Whether you prefer a glitzy, floral, tie-dye, studded, or painted look, there is a jelly shoe upcycling idea for you. So don't throw away your old jelly shoes - get creative and give them a new life!

This is pretty long, and more of a vent than looking for any advice. 😂
We've been NC for a little over a month now. I cut her off because she became aloof, indecisive, and outright distant in the last month leading up to the breakup. I wanted a serious relationship and she didn't. This is a girl I've known since we were very young; a friendship going back to the year 2000. We both also married young (to separate spouses), where we naturally lost touch afterwards. I always really liked her, and I knew even then that she liked me, but we were also committed to our then-relationships to the people we were gonna marry.
We reconnected almost 2 years ago. She popped up on my Instagram out of nowhere, and it was so great to catch up after all those years. I found out her mother had just died of cancer, and she had divorced in 2020. I got divorced in 2019. In the beginning we regularly shared our sorrows and the pains of divorcing. But I never thought of pursuing her at that point in time, I think because I was still working through my own issues post-divorce as a single man for the first time since my late teens.
Then things settled and we'd have the occasional chat, but that was it. Several months would go by between DMs. It went on like that until last summer (July 2022). We started chatting every day, at all hours. We'd talk about anything and everything. Fast-forward to September, and I was smitten at that point. This was the same girl who fascinated me in our youth, but now we were fully-grown adults and found even more in common with each other than we ever knew before - similar interests, life goals, dreams. I professed my love for her in a lengthy email.
(I should add that we live in different US states in present day, so all communication has been online or phone)
She took it all kindly, and even said she knew what the email was going to be about as soon as she started reading it. But, she declined and said her life was a mess, she'd be a lot of work, felt like she couldn't fulfill the needs and desires I wanted in a woman, etc. She did explain that her ex-husband was also emotionally abusive and bipolar, which led to her initiating her divorce. I understood that maybe she was still dealing with that past trauma. She also has a great job that she didn't want to leave, even though I said I'd move to be closer to her in a heartbeat (I'm a freelancer so physical location is no problem for me). But, I'm also not stupid, so I took all this as maybe she's just not interested and was letting me down gently. Sucks, but what could I do?
We kept frequently chatting daily though, even though she knew I was in love with her. The chats got to a point later in the fall where we were basically sexting, almost nightly. I had never sexted in my life, so it was exciting. Yet, she didn't want to start a relationship. She would keep saying, if she could get over her issues, that she would choose me in a heartbeat. She also told me on multiple occasions that she'd never felt a deeper connection with any other person in her life but me. I felt the same, knowing our long history.
In that time, going into December, of sexting and talking about everything as it became our routine thing, she would also get a little distant and I'd get upset and then we wouldn't chat for a few days. I wouldn't answer her messages right away, and then she'd blast me with a dozen texts in a row wondering why I wasn't responding. She would get paranoid about it. And going silent on my end wasn't to cause her frustration, but to protect my own fragile heart from being hurt even more. I know that's not a healthy way to handle that kind of situation, but that's how I did it. We'd soon make up and everything was back as it was before. I didn't want to keep pressing her on whether or not she'd change her mind.
Now get to Valentine's Day last month. We had a nasty blizzard, one of the worst I'd ever experienced in my life. My parents and I were driving home from a live stand-up show about an hour away. Forecasts said the blizzard would be moving in by midnight that night, so we were aware and drive home most of the way with no weather issues. But the wind started picking up and that caused a lot of the fresh snow to start blowing around. We were literally 12 miles away from my parents' house around 10pm when visibility went to zero. You couldn't see the road because it was completely covered. We ended up going into the ditch and getting stuck in the snow. All highways were closed and again, the winds were so strong that you could barely see 5 feet in front of you. Not to mention the wind chill was in the -25°-30°F range and feeling the snow hit your face outside was like a sandblaster. Long story short, I thought I was gonna die that night. Like real, actual danger was happening and my parents and I were gonna freeze to death. Even with extra clothes and a winter survival kit, things got more dire by the hour. There was no way for the highway patrol to reach us until about 5am that morning. We abandoned the car and got in the back seat of the officer's vehicle, and even then it took the officer close to two hours (still zero visibility conditions) to drive us to a shelter at the closest small town, about 1.5 miles back. By morning, the storm had passed and we were given a ride home, as every single vehicle on the highway had to be towed. We'd worry about that later.
In that time while we were left freezing in the car, I texted her about the situation, and how serious it was. I halfway joked that if she didn't hear from me again, that I had frozen solid like a Mt. Everest climber. She was obviously concerned and kept checking in with me. Part of the conversation shifted to wishing each other a happy Valentine's Day, despite my situation. Then I also half joked and asked her that if I survived the night, could we finally be together? Her exact reply was, "I don't know."
Not that I was using my near-death experience to earn points with her. But in that very moment (as my parents and I tried to not get frostbite/not fall asleep/not accidentally breathe in trapped carbon monoxide), I realized that even then she wouldn't want to be with me. So I decided I couldn't do this anymore. All my pining for her all these months is never gonna go anywhere, and I can't keep waiting. Unrequited.
By that weekend, I told her a farewell, said something eloquent like I can't keep waiting for her door to open up for me, and then deleted everything and blocked her on everything. I still think about her all day long, because I really did/do still love her. The tears aren't as frequent as they were a few weeks ago, but I still feel massive heartbreak and depression today. And yeah, I know it's only been a month.
It's her birthday later this week. I know it's silly but I keep thinking about reaching out and wishing her a happy birthday. Even if it's just an email with those two words only. My birthday is in October, and she sent me fresh flowers. So I had even thought of doing that too. But I know, deep down, that the NC should stay put.
Maybe she just liked the attention all that time.