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Okay ; Long story short. My hubby and I have been married for 5 years. He’s the best person inside and out we have a daughter together & I’m currently pregnant with my second. E V E R Y T H I N G has always gone and is going great. I love him. Couldn’t have asked God for a better man. We have great sex, I give him a BJ everytime. But he doesn’t go down on me.. not even by mistake or because I’m giving him a BJ and my bottom half is near his arm. I wanna feel desired and wanted right now it feels great, but it also feels like we have to have sex because we’re married it’s part of the routine. I shaved everything left it so smooth because I thought maybe that would tempt him. We always do it at night in our pitch black room & of course I shower & wash but it just makes me a little sad it keeps me up asking myself why what’s wrong with me.. I have this ex that is still obsessed with me till this day. Even though I’ve cut him off and stopped talking to him since I met my hubby he still Texts me reminding me of everything he did that I loved.. how crazy we were for each other & how we could satisfy our craziest fantasies and desires how I felt safe and welcome to ask for anything I wanted & he ate me out every chance he had sometimes him and I wouldn’t even Have sex he was happy just pleasuring me. I would not ever cheat on my husband and loose the life I have but it just leaves me wondering thinking. My husband is more reserved… with me anyway. He doesn’t understand the importance of foreplay or changing things up every once in a while so my brain just spins and spins because I don’t wanna ask him to do it because then I will pull him straight up because I KNOW it’s not something he wants to be doing. If my husband had the passion & desire my ex haS for me still 5 years later. My life would be so perfect if only I could be my true true self with the man I love & adore & can’t be with out. Most of the time I just say that’s not important & that’s not important but how come bjs ARE important ? 🤔 I’m very afraid of asking him & not being able to handle the answer he gives me.

Hey there... Thanks for the click.. now that you have clicked on the post a little about me...
I am a 41 M based in London, born and raised in London of Indian Heritage. Historically I've attracted, in the majority Indian / Browm females. It's not out of choice.. it's just panned out that way! With that in mind... We know Reddit has a skew on male Vs female but to make it that little more difficult as there any genuine South Asian females lurking around?
I'm currently in-between jobs and the new job doesn't start until April. I work in a professional capacity.
My life is busy at the best of times and I find myself right now with some downtime. I'm single, have been divorced for a good few years now.
I would like to think I'm a good communicator, I prefer to ensure there is good chemistry with someone before doing anything NSFW but I do have a devilish mind. Recently returned to Reddit after a long while for the exact reason I've mentioned above. Have more time on my hands.
I own my own house. Have my own car. Have carved a good solid career. Open to sharing more if there is interest on your side..
What I'm looking for? A good connection. Someone who can hold a conversation and whether you are single, married or spoken for... It doesn't matter. Discretion is guaranteed. Chemistry is key for me as I hope it would be for you too. I'm open to "this" being an online thing only if that's what you are looking for.
I've been lucky enough to get some messages, but as with Reddit... It's always a case of deciphering the fake from the real. The time wasters from the genuine. Please don't waste your time if you're inclined to randomly delete your account or ghost! It's all about chemistry and having some fun along the way.
I'm happy to share more, but if this has got you interested... DM me.

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Okay so a few weeks ago I had unprotected sex with this girl I had never met before (was not a very smart decision) and I’m worried she may have given me a sexually transmitted infection/disease I do plan on getting tested but I just want to hear other peoples thoughts so I can maybe get some peace of mind. I don’t have any issues concerning my genitals, no burning sensations when using the bathroom, itching or warts but I did notice a small hard lump near my anus a few days ago and I’m worried it’s a wart or something but I do know that I have minor case of hemorrhoids so it could maybe just be that. But also, then yesterday I noticed a canker sore in my mouth on the inside of my bottom lip and my throat has started to hurt today so it feels like I have a cold. I didn’t give her oral sex so I’m not sure how it would be in my mouth but we did kiss a lot so maybe that’s why but I don’t know I’m don’t really know of all the ways stds spread I’m mostly just worried and would appreciate some opinions

Alright I've started with a firebolt v2 lower x multiple. I frankenbolted it- had different internet 3d printers make them with their rapid quote online.
i have .223 wylde uppers and .50 beowulf from BCA.
I know for a fact the .223 is fine on the firebolt and hellfire from videos, range trip this weekend to verify the .223
I'm afraid to toss the 50 beowulf on there for fear of it going poof, so unless someone within 50 miles of me lets me use their farm (I'm in a more urban area) I'm not willing to test it while I'm holding it.
Does anyone have any experience shooting .50 beowulf on a 3d printed lower? will post pics of my franken-bolt below:
https://imgur.com/a/1WWSnNC
The cool: I had most of the parts 3d printed by a slew of different online 3d printing services. No one place printed more than 4 different parts. Some that delivered faster, I went back for other parts which didnt work out so well.
I was able to get FDM Nylon 12 glass filled, and abs
the not as cool:
It cost me nearly $750 of sweet tax return money
some places REFUSE to print certain parts (most notably the pistol grip) and went as far as to make a spreadsheet (yes I renamed the STL's)
Having it professionally printed instead of at home took about 2 -3 weeks depending on the service
Sculpteo - Multijet Fusion PA12 Nylon, made the mag well. The mag well rear broke after installing the trigger and hammer assembly and dry firing it.
They REFUSED to print buffer tower and grip
Oakland, CA based
~$120
FacFox - PolyMax PLA, made the black shiny magwell, and a buffer tower, refused to print grip, or any parts on the 2nd order (with the grip)
China based, and dirt cheap (comparatively)
~$70
Protolab - FJM Nylon PA12, made the grip combo unit, no questions asked
$190, was almost $240 all in for a handle, pricy, but, it was totally finished, no sanding needed, no nothing, was printed perfectly
came from NC
Xometry - FJM Nylon PA12, ABS M-30, made 2 buffer towers. Nylon was cheaper and higher quality
~$160
came out of maryland
Rapidmade - FJM Nylon PA12, made the sides, rear mag well, totally finished, spectacular fit and alignment, and hole size. DO NOT get the resin coated pieces, they do it as a finish on the complete part, and uh, yeah, it messes up the tolerances DOH.
Oregon based, good quality, spent nearly $200, but got quantities of 4+ for making multiples
Bear Creek Armory - Complete Upper in pictures is the 7.5" .223 Wylde on sale for under $200. Also grabbed a .50 beowulf upper 10.5", that I'm hoping to pair with subsonic rounds.
PSA sent over the magpull lower kit, (plus a generic one from cheaper than dirt)
I'm siting next to my 3d printer at home, now that the magnetic bed plate is in, as it's PLA printing out some new magwell sides.
After assembling a firebolt, dismantling and reassembling multiple times:

1. I ordered new, longer pins, as the FCG pins don't stretch all the way across, I mean they reach from inside to inside, but they don't go flush on one side to the other, so I'm going for the 2 part pins that are longer- they're on order
2. the mag release sticks really far into it, I'm looking at 3d printing my own part a little bit wider
3. Bolt Catch- jesus F-ing christ, I ordered 5/64" pins instead of the pins it comes with, which makes it easier, but the firebolt design is TERRIBLE for getting it in there, and also getting access to it, I'm 3'd printing an extended release handle I found, but it's within 1.5mm of the upper, so very hard to use well.
4. A 3mm drill bit set from amazon goes a hell of a long way, as I redrilled and tapped every hole on every piece just to be sure, makes the fit way easier
5. the safety, I'm 3d printing a longer one just to make life easier, also the buffer tube support that runs along the frame- makes it inconvenient to flick when the safety is on.
6. you may note some bolts are sticking through. the manual says to use 35mm, but they just barely get threaded, and are in hard to reach spots, so I started running bolts that were 5mm longer, and have been cutting them off where they're in the way, that way I get full threading, and verify they're secured tightly- no I didn't use loctite as it's still a testing bed, and nowhere can I get a thorough debrief on the Firebolt V2 build.
7. a 1/4" drill bit was clutch for the upper attachment holes. just like with the 3mm
8. the takedown pins. I found some on amazon, standard, 1/4" clevis pins, work perfect, they're coming in right at .245" which works out splendidly
9. surprisingly, the threads on the buffer tube housing work perfectly, precisely, and better than the one I printed at home. My only complaint? it's about 1 thread too thick on that magpull buffer tube, had to back it off an RCH so I could get the castle nut to thread more than a 1/4 turn and tighten up

More parts come this week and next, will update after range day this weekend, we'll see if I blow up, loving this hobby!

So, since the pandemic, i have been an agoraphobic NEET. In april of 2020, i had a weed induced panic attack, and during that year i was scared that i was going to die from covid (i have ulcerative colitis, an autoimmune disease), so I had chronic anxiety that lasted till 2022. I spent all of 2022 just trying to be mindful, and i only worked a volunteer job in the early part of that year. Then, today (i am writing this past midnight, so it’s technically the next day) i went to a trivia night meetup (it was the second time that i went) and there was no spot left for me to sit with the meetup group, so i just stood there, and i feel like people would have talked to me more had i had a spot to sit with them. I also feel like i can’t relate to any of these people because of how normal they are (no trauma, able bodied, mostly nuerotypicals, not caring about politics, holding down a job, average or above average attractiveness). I mean, there was one gay man there, but someone can still be pretty normal and be gay.
It was for those reasons that i came home feeling existential dread, and i tried setting with it like dr.k said, but it never went away, so i ate some candy and then masturbated and now i just feel bored, which is better than how i felt before.
On paper the meetup seems like such a mild disappointment, but I’m starting to think that i have undiagnosed adhd, and apparently rejection sensitivity is a symptom of that, so maybe that explains the existential dread. But also i was lonely my entire life, rarely mad friends in school, and now i don’t talk to anyone i knew in high school.
ALL of the people who have been my friends had at least one of the characteristics i mentioned in the above paragraph. There was one normal guy I used to work with who had a brother with autism, and so he said he had a “soft spot for people with autism” and we got along, but he ghosted me as soon as he got another job.
It doesn’t look to me like cities are going to be more walkable in the future, it doesn’t seem to me like there is going to be more social infrastructure in the future, it doesn’t seem to me like the economy is going to get better, all i can see is me either holding down a part time job while on disability, or maybe i find a job i can do full time, but I’m still living in poverty. I want to live near a city because being alone away from the city is worse than being alone near a city, but i can’t imagine cities getting more affordable in the future. The trend seems to be people moving away from cities just because they can’t afford to live near cities. I also can only see people getting more and more lonely as technology becomes all consuming, and people only seeing human beings at work, (it is that way for a lot of people) and that was the life i lived before the pandemic.
All i can see for my life is that i get more functional, have better coping mechanisms, and i can hold down a part time or full time job but i will still be living in poverty. When i was 16, all i thought about was getting away from my parents and living in a shitty apartment and smoking weed and playing bass, but now i can’t see anything to look forward to since weed is no longer for me and i am no longer obsessed with music.
Is there anyone who is reading this who understands disability and autism and being poor?

I am quiet, anti social and prefer to be on my own however when I am social then I get exhausted from pretending to be interested in other people. People also don't bother talking much to me. I have social anxiety due to long term bullying and always never being liked by other girls. Whenever I went, I didn't have friends and was hated. Workplaces, school, college etc. I was always left out even when I tried to communicate and then I just kept to myself but then people thought I am weird and called me a weirdo for being quiet and introverted. I want to force myself to change to be more liable.
The thing is that people say I'm very pretty and often think that I think im better than them when I'm introverted but when I try to social then I have no interest in knowing about others, their life and my life don't corresponds as they have husband's and kids and I pretend to be interested in their kids to not seem weird. I also don't know how to start a conversation and the other person also don't make an effort. I hate crowded places. Im tired of coming across as a weirdo. I have lost my jobs due to me being quiet and not socializing or talking much and people think something is wrong and ask me is something bothering me...which annoys me because I just like keeping to myself and at my own pace I will be talkative when I'm comfortable.
I don't know why people must take it personal that I'm quiet and assume I don't wanna speak to them. I'm always very quiet in the work transport of every job I had as I enjoy peace and being my on my phone. How is it weird? I absolutely hate parties, drinking and smoking. I'm Muslim, how is it even wrong or boring to nor do those things...
How can I adapt to society? My former boss said I need to pretend to be interested in other people which is what I do and it works but I get bored and exhausted. I will lie and say that my relative had just died so I can be quiet in peace without anyone thinking I'm weird because its so relaxing to be quiet and on my own.
What's wrong with me?

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Hey there! If you've chosen to read through this, you're probably a DM looking for a group of players to join you. Let's first get into who we are as a group and what we are looking for:

• We're a group of 5 friends (age range 19-23), 3 of which have known each other for at least a year.
• We all have some experience with Pf2e (been playing 2e for about half a year), though we aren't perfectly knowledgable about everything.
• We're a somewhat chaotic group that likes to crack a lot of jokes out of game. We don't carry that forward into our characters though, and our roleplay isn't nearly as chaotic as our out of game banter.
• Speaking of, we prefer roleplay-heavy games, though we do enjoy ourselves some combat. 75/25 or something around that ratio is great. Exploration is not a must-have, though depending on the format we do enjoy it a lot as well.
• We like it when backstories are involved in the overall plot or at least make occasional appearances, though that's not a must-have.

The plot doesn't have to be ultra-thick, but at least a bit of story to sink our teeth into is greatly appreciated, be it political intrigue, a BBEG to stop or a calamity to avert. We play by voice on discord without cameras. Our experience with VTT is mostly centred around Foundry, though we've used Roll20 before as well, though any VTT is fine as long as you're willing to give us a crash course ^^. The times we're available for are currently:

• Friday, anywhere between 19:00 - 02:00 CET
• Tuesday, anywhere between 19:00 - 24:00 CET

With that being said, if you're a DM looking for some players who already know each other, are welcoming and have great chemistry and group cohesion, shoot me a DM! I'll be around in the afternoon to have a short Q&A session with you.
Regardless of the outcome of that, we'd like to have a "test-oneshot", preferrably tomorrow (friday) in the allotted timeslot. One of us can run it if you don't have time to prepare one though, as it's a relatively short time to prep. This is simply to figure out whether we all RP well with one another before we fully commit hours of work into it.
We're looking forward to getting to know you! Until then, have a nice day! :)

Okay so a few weeks ago I had unprotected sex with this girl I had never met before (was not a very smart decision) and I’m worried she may have given me a sexually transmitted infection/disease I do plan on getting tested but I just want to hear other peoples thoughts so I can maybe get some peace of mind. I don’t have any issues concerning my genitals, no burning sensations when using the bathroom, itching or warts but I did notice a small hard lump near my anus a few days ago and I’m worried it’s a wart or something but I do know that I have minor case of hemorrhoids so it could maybe just be that. But also, then yesterday I noticed a canker sore in my mouth on the inside of my bottom lip and my throat has started to hurt today so it feels like I have a cold. I didn’t give her oral sex so I’m not sure how it would be in my mouth but we did kiss a lot so maybe that’s why but I don’t know I’m don’t really know of all the ways stds spread I’m mostly just worried and would appreciate some opinions

I just got dumped tonight for not texting for a day. I have just lost my job and now this bullshit. The funny thing is she went a whole day and a half not talking to me so double standard I guess. It sucks I'm sad and a little angry but most of all I'm just kind of like fuck it and I don't care. But if anyone could cheer me up a little bit with some nice words that would be nice!

Here is the part 1 for context:
https://www.reddit.com/PakistaniiConfessions/comments/11uo6l7/my_wife_knows_i_cheated_on_he?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=ioscss&utm_content=2&utm_term=1
My post on Reddit blew up. I was getting comments and messages telling me what and what not to do. Most of them made sense. I want to thank everyone who abused me in the comments cuz I deserved it. I was asked by many users about the physical intimacy between me and my wife. I wasn’t comfortable answering this personal question, sorry for that.
After the night my wife asked me about cheating, my wife said it’s best if we give each other some space so she left for her parent’s house for a week. She told me to decide something before she comes back.
The next day after my post, I texted nida to meet her to end things. I was numb and did not care about what nida was saying but we ended it. It’s going to be a bumpy ride cuz I have decided to leave the office I was working in for two reasons: 1. Nida will be working in that office. 2. Someone who photographed us is unknown and remains in the office.
My wife came back after spending a little more than a week at her parent’s. As soon as I closed the door, I wrapped my hands around my wife with tears and begged her for forgiveness and told her she does not need to forgive me right away or ever if she feels that’s right. I was (still am) in deep remorse. I told her I’ve left nida and will be leaving the office as soon as I get a new job (or live off my father for some time) I asked her to make a decision cuz I am in no position to make one. I’ve assured her that if she decides to leave, I will fully take the blame and tell the families about the infidelity. If someone (which is going to be my mom) tries to turn things around to blame my wife, I will show them the evidence of my infidelity. But if she decides to stay with me, I will spend the rest of my life making up to her. My life will be hers and I will solely live for her. I’ll keep making efforts for her. I’ll treat her the way she deserves to be treated. I’ve told my wife that she can take as much time as she wants to make her decision.
I write this as I’m lying next to her and never in our 16 months together have I ever felt the luckiest to have my wife next to me on our bed. I’m the least religious guy but I prayed for my wife’s bliss and contentment in isha and tahujud last night. I don’t know what my wife will decide but now, all I care about is her happiness.

Okay ; Long story short. My hubby and I have been married for 5 years. He’s the best person inside and out we have a daughter together & I’m currently pregnant with my second. E V E R Y T H I N G has always gone and is going great. I love him. Couldn’t have asked God for a better man. We have great sex, I give him a BJ everytime. But he doesn’t go down on me.. not even by mistake or because I’m giving him a BJ and my bottom half is near his arm. I wanna feel desired and wanted right now it feels great, but it also feels like we have to have sex because we’re married it’s part of the routine. I shaved everything left it so smooth because I thought maybe that would tempt him. We always do it at night in our pitch black room & of course I shower & wash but it just makes me a little sad it keeps me up asking myself why what’s wrong with me.. I have this ex that is still obsessed with me till this day. Even though I’ve cut him off and stopped talking to him since I met my hubby he still Texts me reminding me of everything he did that I loved.. how crazy we were for each other & how we could satisfy our craziest fantasies and desires how I felt safe and welcome to ask for anything I wanted & he ate me out every chance he had sometimes him and I wouldn’t even Have sex he was happy just pleasuring me. I would not ever cheat on my husband and loose the life I have but it just leaves me wondering thinking. My husband is more reserved… with me anyway. He doesn’t understand the importance of foreplay or changing things up every once in a while so my brain just spins and spins because I don’t wanna ask him to do it because then I will pull him straight up because I KNOW it’s not something he wants to be doing. If my husband had the passion & desire my ex haS for me still 5 years later. My life would be so perfect if only I could be my true true self with the man I love & adore & can’t be with out. Most of the time I just say that’s not important & that’s not important but how come bjs ARE important ? 🤔 I’m very afraid of asking him & not being able to handle the answer he gives me.

I (F23) was in a relationship with my now ex (M24) highschool sweetheart as of Dec 2013. We had one breakup a year ish ago (Dec 2021) and recently got back together in October 2022. I found out about 1.5 weeks ago that he cheated. He saw another girl after going out to the bars with his friends who were "just guys" and used that as an excuse that I couldn't go. Btw this was on NYE, & I should clarify i don't expect to hangout with him and his friends, we both need to have our time apart. However, before we broke up the last time, he never went out to the bars and was suffering from not making friends. I invited him out with my group and we always had a good time. So I was confused why I was never invited around these friends like EVER And during a time I needed support. Since we got back together, l've had my susciosions. He would leave his phone on airplane mode during the day and night, wouldn't tell his friends about me, bring me around the people he hangs out with, etc. I actually found out when we got back together in October 2022 that he was commenting on women's pics on IG back when we were together before we had broken up (so like 2020). Sorry that's probably confusing. After we got back together, I've dealt with him lying about the strip clib and I even caught him telling his friends to lie about certain females. He wouldn't go out on holidays even Halloween my fav one with me, only his friends. so fast forward to about 1.5 weeks ago, he got a DUl and I was able to finally get into his phone. I found out that he went out and cheated physically (3 times, first time On NYE when he told me I couldn't go cus it was just guys) and continued emotionally until I caught him. I found 2 other girls he was talking to emotionally. he's my best friend. I thought, and he told me things would change every week. I begged for him to treat me how he was treating his side piece. He always said I was "fighting" with him but I just wanted him to treat me how he treated his side piece.
I never wanted to be the girl who stayed with someone who treated them like shit and cheated but here I am so disappointed in myself bc I know I should respect myself more. Ijust can't let go it's so hard and the fact that he doesn't want to fix us kills me. I don't even know if I want him to be honest or if I want him to want me back after screwing me over. This is really ruining my work andschool life, but I'm letting it!!. The first time we broke up it's like I understood we weren't compatible but that was when it was mutual and then we got back Now that he cheated I can't let go for some reason. I know i'm Worth a lot. I'm self aware in my head but I can't let go in my actions like I always respond and let him come back over thinking we will be ok I just have known him for so long and he's like my family. I'm also at a low point in life where I don't have a single friend or work. I'm a full time uni student living with family and I know deep Down what I need to do (focus on making girl friends and get a job) y but I hate change.
I'm looking for advice on how to change this perspective of wanting someone who betrayed me Part of me is hoping someone will tell me to stay but pls tell me l'm dumb, share experiences, advise.

I don't know if it's okay to ask here this but I'm planning on filing a report to the police station since sinuntok ako ng kuya ko sa muka kanina. My left cheek is bruised and swollen. Have been experiencing emotional abuse from my kuya ever since na and napuno ako kanina and confronted him kung ano bang problema nya sakin and it escalated to him punching me.
I'm pretty hesistant and scared to go by myself since walang pake si mama or other family members ko and wala akong friend near me.

I have been on HRT for almost 2 months now and recently my wife and i decided to move in with my parents while I start an internship. I want to continue HRT but my parents are fairly transphobic and don’t know about me yet.
This internship is made up of very conservative people and they told me that they will most likely offer me the job at the end, which I really want/need.
I just don’t know what to do. I want to stay on HRT, but I need this job. I already have somewhat noticeable breast growth so I’m not sure how long I could hide everything.
P.S. we just told my parents that we are 2 months pregnant and it’s kind of complicating our marriage a little bit because my wife believes in strength of raising a kid with a dad.

Couldn't hold water down. It was my mom actually that forced me to go.
I get here and they start doing blood work left and right. Eventually they brought in an IV. I'm really scared at this point, I've never done any of this medical stuff, so I just have no clue what's happening and why they're poking me with so much stuff.
They start asking about drinking habits and what not. I tell them I drink a lot, and they essentially say we could tell. Some type of acid in my stomach was dangerously high.
So they committed me, and now I'm sitting in a medical bed for the first time in my life, hooked up to an IV. I think they even have people from a rehab center on the way to talk to me per request, I dunno I'm so confused with how all this happened. Everything happened so fast it seems.
But I'm feeling better, trying to not think about the bill, or these people that our coming to talk to me, or the implications for my job going forward. Boss says it's fine done worry, just get better. So I'm trying to do just that.

CW for mentions of filth, and hospital unpleasantness.
So, for those of you who don't work in healthcare, there's a system called CAHPS (sometimes called HCAHPS), short for the Consumer Assessment of Healthcare Providers System. If you've ever been asked to fill out a survey after an ER visit, hospital stay or even just getting bloodwork, that's what this is. HCAHPS is a variant for hospitals; the better your HCAHPS score, the better the reimbursement you get from the government, and therefore the better the hospital's funding.
My hospital is consistently scoring at an abysmal rate; two stars out of five per HCAHPS, and a lot of that is the bedside manner of the nurses and point of care technicians. They will ignore patient alarms and let them soil themselves in their bed, they will let urine, soda or god knows what else sit on the floor without calling housekeepers for hours or even days, they will let suction canisters (for pumping stomachs) sit in rooms right up until the instant that the next patient is going to be in the room, will let trash and food trays rot if they think the patient is under isolation... and most of the time, they don't know what they're even under isolation for! I work housekeeping, so I would like to know if the patient in Room 203 had C. Diff, COVID, or goddamn Ebola.
There's an air of contempt and incompetence from the nurses, the latter of which isn't too surprising; since the start of the year, literally 70% of the nursing staff quit. And you can tell they're not training the new hires properly because again: they will let liquids be on the floor for literal days. I had to clean up a day-old puddle of urine under a patient's bed, when we should have been notified about it the instant it started to stink. Do you think that patient gave us a good HCAHPS score when their room stank of urine for over a day?
There are a bunch of other fucking disgusting areas in the hospital. The kitchen has to be one of the worst; never eat hospital food if you can help it, especially not any meat product prepared on-site. The kitchen is filthy to the point where after less than fifteen minutes of cleaning it with a floor machine, said machine smells like rotten garbage. Kitchen staff are supposed to clean it, but they fucking don't, so it's left to the housekeepers.
I work second-shift housekeeping, and we are fucking shat upon, literally. First shift housekeeping is able to not clean a restroom for almost two fucking weeks straight and nobody even gets a write-up, despite them LITERALLY KNOWING WHO WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR CLEANING IT, BECAUSE THEIR NAMES ARE ON ASSIGNED PAPERWORK. Third shift doesn't even have a supervisor and just govern themselves, while, my supervisor holds a motherfucking microscope to us, despite the fact that we are the one shift on housekeeping that ACTUALLY DOES FUCKING WORK!
And the director of housekeeping, who fucking thinks that first shift can do no wrong, has the fucking audacity to suggest we do a fucking turndown service as part of housekeeping, as if we do not literally have to do HALF OF THE FUCKING HOSPITAL! The ER, Vascular, Physical Therapy, Pediatrics, staff break rooms, dozens of fucking bathrooms, oncology, patient discharges (we can get fourteen of them on a good day and each room can take up to half an hour if the nurses do their job WHICH THEY FUCKING DON'T!) the kitchen and cafeteria, the lab. First shift literally has to walk the floors where the patients are fucking treated and do a few discharges. That's it. And sometimes they can't even be bothered to do that!
One time when I clocked in for my shift, we had FIVE discharges waiting for us right off the bat because first shift just fucking played on their phones all day; we had a total of eight before we were there for an hour, and that ballooned to fifteen before we were done with our shift. This was 'discussed' with first shift, but was anything actually done about it? Were people written up? Fucking of course not.
Meanwhile, I fall asleep on my break, and I get fucking written up because it's on my paid fifteen instead of my lunch. Explain to me in what universe that is fucking fair.
We are held to a fucking ASTRONOMICAL STANDARD compared to the rest of the hospital, and yet we're blamed for the fucking HCAHPS being low? When we literally do not know when rooms need cleaned because the nurses refuse to communicate to us, or anyone else? How is that fair?
Literally the only reason I have not put in my two weeks is because I need the insurance and can't find a job anywhere else. I feel like I'm being held hostage. My 90 day evaluation is tomorrow afternoon, and I think I'm going to tell my supervisor that this job is complete and utter bullshit.

Around eight-fifteen, in the middle of prom, Dennis and his three friends sat at the corners of the gymnasium stalking among the rest that danced. Lia’s boyfriend had just left with other boys to a diner, Jordan remained silent and paid attention to her friend, Alice, across the gymnasium, and Dennis remained calm as the rest spoke among each other; mostly about work, or their upcoming school projects. As Dennis, being 16 years old, wiped his hair for the last time for effect, he got an odd thought and said loudly, hoping everyone at the table heard, “Someone has been saying I slept with Mr. Kane, our math teacher”. Two of his friends, Robert and Lia, glanced at him, now focusing the conversation on him holding their phones in hand, and asked excitedly, “Who?”. Dennis, feeling pride within himself suddenly reached his phone, to check the time. “I don’t know who? I'm thinking of that girl, Savannah”, Dennis said lazily, as if he just thought of the name just now. All who sat at the table, at their prom night, especially Lia, glanced at Jordan, who from holding her wallet with strong stability, said harshly, “You don’t know how it got out? Does Mr. Kane knows?”. Dennis glanced across the dance floor, thinking how foolish everyone looked, especially popular couples and their fancy suits, and looked back at Jordan and said, “He was giving me weird looks last week. He probably thinks I'm the one making it up”. Dennis then giggles lightly to himself. Jordan then sees her friend, Alice, come up near their table wearing a nice red sparkle dress, along with her boyfriend across the gymnasium talking among his group of boys. She strolled near Lia first, saying hello, then over to Jordan ignoring the rest at the table. “Hello Jordan, you fixed yourself good”, Alice said. Jordan, without looking at her, says, “Thank you so much”, and raises a smile. Dennis, hearing them continue to talk, and having no more talk about him, said loudly again, “Someone around here has been spreading rumors that I slept with Mr. Kane, our math teacher”. Alice then looks at Dennis quickly. “Really? Who?”, Alice says as neatly as she can. Hoping her reaction looked well for effect. Before Dennis can answer, Lia instead says, “We don’t know who?”, then adds quickly, “We think it's that Savannah girl”. “That girl is always getting into trouble”, Alice says proudly. Dennis looked at all them, and felt a need to giggle, but instead remained silent with himself. By then, Jordan then asks strictly, “Is anybody up for food?”. Thus, when they all agreed, a few wishing they didn’t, all stood up and ditched their prom and started heading down the street where a nice diner stood neatly near a gas station. When they arrived at the diner, a few boys from prom were there as well, and said hello to them as they picked their seats. One of them, Lia's boyfriend, came and said hello. "Do I wear too much makeup?", Lia asked cautiously. Her boyfriend became stubborn when he responded quickly, "whatever you think". Lia, disappointed she didn't get an offensive answer, agreed and made sure to smile instead. But before Lia and her boyfriend can continue their conversation, Dennis says lightly, “Guess what?”. Her boyfriend, still feeling nervous about his answer, looked up at Dennis. “What?”, Lia 's boyfriend says nicely. “Someone last week has been spreading rumors I slept with Mr. Kane”, Dennis said strictly. “Really who?”, then adds, “Is it true?”. Dennis was not surprised by the quick need for answers and felt lonely when he realized he was mostly tired, and irritable, to go back home later, in a small apartment: then go on his phone, check some blogs, and slowly drift off to sleep. Hearing nothing but the loud stomps and tension between his dog, his parents, and the often harsh ventilation that blew sourly through his room. Dennis looks at his reflection on his phone for what he thought was to check the time, and sees how small and unattractive he thinks he is, and giggles sourly, before saying again without looking at Lia's boyfriend, who was tall, white, and handsome, “I don’t know who. But we think it's that girl Savannah. She is always getting into trouble”. By then, all who were at the table agreed.

Background - I'm from India. Have an undergrad in Econ (non target). Decent grades. Have an Equity Research Internship at a boutique (in India) CFA Level 1 attempt in august'23 GRE - 320 Work experience - 6 months (internships )
I had applied to masters programs in the US for MS in Finance. Couple of acceptances, but I was skeptical because of the mixed advice I got. I've decided to wait back another year, clear my CFA Level 1 and hopefully 2 while gaining some more work ex and try to learn some coding to improve my prospects for admissions at better places and also better jobs.
2 reasons for applying abroad - 1. I want to work in Asset management. Breaking in (even in my hometown) requires either sufficient work ex. or education from a target. (I have none) 2. I have had the desire to study and work in the US since I was a kid (some emotional bias)
The educational consultancy I joined screwed me over and suggested schools which looked great initially but after digging in, I got to know they aren't that good. (I made the mistake to not do my due diligence and trusted them blindly)
Please provide suggestions in regards to how I should utilise this yea what schools should I target for the next round/ any other advice or guidance on how I should plan my progression.
End goal would be to find a decent paying job in the US after the Masters.
Please be kind. I'm still recovering from a phase of self doubt and was on the brink of breakdown. (Apologies if mentioning that seems irrelevant to you, but I just don't have the stomach to handle negativity right now)
I appreciate all the feedback/suggestions. Thank you.